THE OLD MAN IN THE PARK –
CONVERSATIONS RESUMED
Well I
did not go to the concert the next day not because I did not want to meet the
old man; in fact I did want to, but other things kept me busy. The Kutcheri
season had ended but I thought that I may bump into him in some concert or the
other in the neighbourhood sometime. I did look forward to it for I felt there
was something else to him than the flippant exterior he presented. I was
therefore pleasantly surprised when a few days ago I met him in the park,
sitting there all alone and watching the children play, with a smile on his
face. As I approached him he looked up and said to me –
“Well
there you are. Did I really bore you so much that you decided to skip the rest
of the music season? I am glad that we meet again and I promise that I shall
not intimidate you with my remarks. Come sit down here if you have the time and
may be we can talk a bit about the good old days. Sorry, but that’s all I know
about now”.
I did
not hesitate and sat next to him and said “Frankly I was looking forward to
meeting you again. You interest me”
He
laughed “Funny, whoever would find an old man interesting? But I like your
openness and you have patience. That’s what I gathered when I met you that day.
If my guess is right you are in your early sixties isn’t it? Now may be you can
guess my age”
“Eighty
five at least”
“Eighty
seven to be precise”
Though
he did look old, he appeared physically much younger and mentally very alert.
But there was something sad in those eyes. He was obviously a very intelligent
man who had seen and undergone all the trials and tribulations that life could
offer. I looked at him and smiled.
He
carried on “I come here nearly every day in the evening and watch all the
people who come here. It is not curiosity, but as I watch them the park seems
to come alive. After all as one sees his end approaching, he wants to feel
‘life’. As I sit here, the evening slowly drifts away as dusk settles down and
then the night creeps in. I am in the dusk now and soon it will be night and I
will go home”.
It was a
lonely man that I saw sitting next to me, but one who had accepted the coming
of the end. He had seen it all. I asked him “who else lives with you at home?”
He
laughed “Home? Well I had one till last year as long as my wife was alive. Now
of course I have a house where I stay with a servant to keep me company. He is
also getting on in years. I brought him along from my village where he was
living as a destitute and now he looks after me, as faithful as a dog. Sorry I
couldn’t find a better expression”
“What
about your children? Where are they?” I asked.
“No, I
don’t have any children. There is a brother and his family who do come to see
me frequently as they stay nearby. My wife passed away last year. You see we
had been together for more than sixty years. It was only a question of who will
go first and she did. What saddened me was that she had to go after suffering
for some years. She had cancer and many a time I have wished she had gone much
earlier. But when I look back now, I am not dissatisfied with the life that I
have led, except for the fact that there were no children. But I did find other
outlets to compensate for that. I love children and I have done my bit for all
those destitute and orphans in my own way and it has given me and my wife great
happiness. You may wonder why we did not adopt a child, but that is of no
consequence for in the end we ended adopting many more this way. After the
death of my wife I have slowly withdrawn into myself, but I do find a lot of
solace in music and that’s why I do not miss any concert that is held in this
neighbourhood. My friends do drop in at times but now one cannot have a
conversation with them for they also have their problems. That day at the
concert and now today I find it easy to talk to you though you are a stranger”.
As it
was getting late I got up and asked him “Will you be leaving now? I can walk
along with you till your house”
He said
“No go ahead. I shall remain here for some more time. But we shall meet again I
hope. You can always find me at this spot and next time I promise that I shall
listen to you; till then, bye and all the best”.
As I
walked out of the park, I turned back to see him, a lonely figure on the bench
as the dusk settled. The night was slowly creeping in. that’s what life is all
about – the dawn, the light of the day, the twilight and then the all consuming
darkness.
3 comments:
Evening, dusk, age, are stages of life, which suddenly darken as we begin realising that after evening comes night. We no longer look at it as a time for rest before the next morning. Youth looks at dusk with time for rest before the beginning of another day.
Your talks are interesting. Looking at the darker shades of the evening, and trying to understand time through the words of one who is older.
I think we still have to look at the brighter tomorrow and see the youthful aspirations of what lies in store. The hidden creativity which was lost behind ledgers, budgets and P reports! What a lot of talent is waiting to be discovered. Please have the next conversation with a man 20 years younger than you. Waiting…
Chandra Pillai on facebook: reads like a Russian novel..the only thing missing is a chilling blizzard and the howl of hungry wolves..but carry on, Subbu..a welcome change from the monotonous political slugfests..
I have often observed that the transition time from evening to night is pretty fast!
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